“O God, I have tasted Your goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the triune God, I want to want You; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Your glory, I pray, so that I may know You indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, “Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away.” Then give me grace to rise and follow You up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long.” (Tozer, The Pursuit of God)
Thirsty for more…
Can I have more? Am I supposed to want more? I thought God satisfied the soul. At least, that’s what I’ve been told.
Sometimes, when I look up long enough from all that keeps my attention, I’m aware of an ache that I can’t fully describe. Tozer’s words hit me full in the chest sending a wake up call in the middle of my chaotic life. And for a little over a week I’ve tried to sit down and journal my thoughts but am continually derailed by all manner of interruptions – not the least of which has been the ramping up of a full fall schedule of travel and mentoring appointments. I want to get something out, if only to get this off my desk so I apologize for the half baked nature of this post. And now I have to study for this coming Saturday’s meeting. I once again feel like the little man under the avalanche of papers trying to dig out into the light.
One small thought before I close. Francis goes on to quote Piper regarding a critical question for our generation. But I wonder if a better question needs to be asked. Rather than asking if, when we get to heaven and have all the perks of our dream of heaven will we be satisfied if Christ were not there, I think we need to be asking, “Will I love Him today without any felt assurance of His Presence?” That’s where the rubber meets the road in my opinion.